There lies an unspoken curiosity about

A place where light doesn’t shine

What we see is what we see

With light you don’t need your eyes

It is in the black that we see a lot

That we come alive, our senses ignite

There is a loudness in silence

And silence in loudness

The unseen has to be seen

The sound has to be heard

Our curiosity lights, but never burns

In the end, it’s only darkness with empty words


Forever Alone… much?

What I write stays with me and never flies away

For I haven’t any mates

But when I see an ant crawling on my page

I don’t flick it away

For I always feel it is reading what I have to say!

The Controversial Anti-Islam Film… and a few other things!

On September 11, 2001, Osama Bin Laden, as they say, ordered the attacks on The Twin Towers. More than half of the world thinks he did it, while the remaining thinks he didn’t. Well, what ever the case may be, almost every year on September 11, America has released or done offensive measures against Islam. In 2010, Pastor Terry Jones proposed to burn the Qur’an. They burned 20-or-so copies of the Qur’an, a highly unforgivable act. But this film, released 1 week ago, just took it one step further, and the content inside is even more controversial and unforgivable than the burning. I’m not just gonna talk about this film, but Terrorism and the unfair characterization of us Muslims, and Pakistani’s to an extend!

Now, I’m a Pakistani Muslim. No, by that I do not mean that I have a 6 foot beard, nor do I rock in one place in silence, nor do I have AK-47’s lying in my house and nor do I attend underground terrorist meetings. I get up every morning, make myself noodles and tea, put on a good movie and then do my drawings, or read books. Then my mom calls me to do some house chores and I run off to do that. Such is the full extend of my household activities, and every household in Pakistan or any Muslim-country in the world. If you think we do nothing all day but make plans on how to destroy that building or how to blow oneself up in the public, then you’re in for a very rude awakening. I call that unfair characterization. The Americans, mostly, have unfairly stereotyped us because of just one person: Osama Bin Laden. What he did was good to some, disasterous to many, but what the Americans are doing is disasterous to many, good to nobody. This arrogance and narrow-minded view has led to unfair stereotyping in movies, cartoons, games, TV shows and songs. Many do it reluctantly, some saying “hey, it’s showbiz”, while the others do it willingly and over here America and /or supporters of America declare their narrow weak minds and that a much poisonous hatred is running in their veins. I don’t hate America with a boiling rage inside of me, no, I just don’t like how it has become and how its people have become. Since I’m on the subject of stereotyping, let me continue it further as much as I can: A few months ago, James Holmes, a 20-something adult, opened fire in a movie theatre in Aurora, Colorado. He injured more than 50 and killed 12. He was apparently influenced by The Joker, a character who appears in The Dark Knight, and his twisted, distorted views on life and the world and basically everything. Now, can’t I safely assume that every teenager in America gets immoral thoughts like these by playing games like Doom, Soldier of Fortune, Call of Duty, Mortal Kombat and by watching movies like SAW, Hostel, Dark Knight & A Clockwork Orange? If Osama, somehow to you, represents the whole of Pakistan and Islam, can’t James represent the whole of America and whatever religion he follows? If you think this is not the case then go open YouTube or check out forums where your teenage Americans and other knockheads around the world have hailed him as a hero. More than half of the best known shootings and / or terrorist attacks are from America and done by Americans. So, please America, stop calling yourself perfect, because you’re not. You’re flawed just like the rest of us and you will do better to stop this unfair characterizing and offensive movies.

While I’m at it, a guy like Saif Ali Khan should be beaten out in public for his involvement in Kurbaan, another film that stereotypes Muslims in negative manner. Saif himself is a Muslim and this makes all the more shocking but that’s showbiz, right? Same goes for the TV show 24 for its wrong portrayal of Muslims and… excessive use of torture. Us 90’s kids grew up watching Dexter, Pink Panther & Dora the Explorer and I’m disturbed by the fact that the kids of the now have to grow up watching shitty craps like the above mentioned.

True, September 11 cannot be forgotten, it never will, but the least we can do is move on from that step. I’m not saying to apologize and hug and invite all over for tea. I’m saying that stop the things that could lead to bigger things. A big explosion always starts from a small spark. A bloody fight always starts from words. If you think these things don’t matter, they do. They always have. Failing to recognize these things and failing to stop them can bring down a nation in minutes, something none of us wants. So, I suggest that everyone remove the hatred and the anger from their hearts, clear their minds and give the other a chance at redemption for both him and you! Man has always wanted to bring the other down, man still does. Ever since Man learned the true purpose of a stick, Man has used it to kill the other, something we still do, except we do it with modern weapons and in silent ways. Man is still on square one. No, seriously, we haven’t moved, we haven’t evolved one bit. Nada! Dogs have, cats have, nature has, but we haven’t. Millions and millions of years later, we’re still rooted on that very same square. Inventing new weapons to destroy your enemy is not called progress. I refuse to call it that. We’re in fact turning 360-degrees back instead of moving forward. Killing back then had a purpose, a meaning, a sense. Even the September 11 attacks. Now it has almost literally become an amusement past-time, something James and the other rampage killers have proven it to us.

Let’s see if I can exhaust this even further: Many find this an annoying habit and get angry but I’m all with it. What I’m talking about here is when after killers do their business, they usually call out a game, song, movie or a book which influenced them. Many call this unfair, the fans, but I say use this as an example. True, you cannot go around and knock on each and everyone’s house and tell them not to go out and kill the others or otherwise that particular media, book, movie whatever, will forever be associated by that hideous act and will be remembered in history solely for that. True, you cannot do that but by you should know that there are lunatics still living in this world, don’t you? You may be unknowningly igniting the spark and you cannot say which one of your fans would do such an act but you cannot say that you didn’t know that people still do stuff like this. Please, I’ve heard this lame excuse enough! You’re not dumb, deaf or blind and you understand things well just as I do. The finger of blame should be pointed on the guy who released such material. Use the killers’ influences as an example and try to put an end to it, instead of provoking them further and hailing them as heroes.

I hope I have made myself clear and I wish I could’ve presented it in a better way but my thinking goes this much and thus, this is the best I could come up with!

Now, let’s talk about the film. I’ve refused to watch the film and I will not, under any circumstance, allow myself or anyone else to see it. It is a derogatory film made by a third-grade, low-brow person and I have no desire to jump into his mind and see things from his point of view.

I remember seeing a Muslim writing “I’m gonna go see this film” somewhere. Have you no shame? To all Muslims, have you not the least bit of respect for your Prophet? Have you not the least bit of respect for your God? For your religion? For yourselves? You by now know what the film consists of, and yet you still want to see it? Haven’t you any shame, any respect? If you saw the film knowingly, you’re even lower than the person who directed it, Muslim or not. When you yourself don’t have any respect for Muhammad (P.B.U.H), then why are you rioting? Why are you getting angry? On top of all, why are you calling yourself a Muslim? Tut, tut, I thought we were supposed to handle this maturely and in the right way possible. But no, instead we’re flocking over to the nearest cinema or logging in on to YouTube and watching it, thus fulfilling that film’s director’s wish.

Speaking of which, the director just wanted a reaction and we’re giving it to him. Inwardly he is smiling and stupidly we’re making him smile. Whether he did it out of fear or hatred, he just wanted to watch the world burn. So what if he demeans our Prophet Mohammad (P.B.U.H)? We Muslims know very well that he wasn’t. We Muslims very well know what sort of a pious character he was. That being said, why are we consistently proving not the world, but that low-brow, the opposite? It just goes on to show that you have, well I shouldn’t be really saying this, accepted his challenge. Please, stop this voting and supporting nonsense for our Prophet Mohammad (P.B.U.H) is far above than this. He just cannot be bought down to that level but we, and our trash-addled minds, continuously do so, not only him but the other Prophets as well, like Jesus.

Competiting Jesus against drug-abusers as The Beatles? Competiting a pious and honest person such as Mohammad (P.B.U.H) against an immature, immoral person as Madonna? It can be either one of two things: Either you have elevated these so-called “demi-god celebrities” to the status of Prophets, or you have debased the value and respect of the former and have lowered them down to as nothing more than everyday celebrities. It can be only one and both correctly show how immature our minds have become and how, in front of our eyes, everything looks the same. You wouldn’t compare your mom to a dog, would you? Yes, over here you show rationality and scoff at the very idea of it. Comparing your mom to a dog is not acceptable but comparing a Prophet to a woman who strips at the very chance she gets is acceptable? I just don’t believe it! I truly don’t!

So, you’re telling me, no listen to this, you’re telling me that should Madonna recieve 10 votes and a Prophet 5 votes, Madonna’s value and status automatically becomes more valuable and important than a Prophet? Jesus, or any other Prophet, becomes second to her? Do you, after reading these humiliating polls and surveys, dust your hands and accept the fact that you lost, that a Prophet’s status is nothing in front of Madonna, is that what you’re saying? You know what you’ve proven: That you’re a jerk. You have absolutely no respect or regard for anything. To you everything is a joke. Isn’t it funny that you Christians mock Jesus the whole year and then cry out to him when you’re sick or in great peril? Isn’t it? All-Forgiving,  yes, but if you have knowledge of this and are taking advantage of this, then it should’ve been you on that giant cross, extremely sorry to say that.

From a person who degrades his own Prophet, this was to be expected but this extreme… no-one could’ve guessed.

Regarding the film, I believe I have made it clear that I haven’t seen the film, nor do I plan to, in any time. I respect myself, my religion, Allah, our Prophet Mohammad (P.B.U.H) and I respect them, follow them and I look him up as the greatest leader and person ever to walk the earth, and I’m not going to let a third-grade scumbag show me otherwise, even if he is a close friend or my own father. What I know of the film is from the newspapers and TV talk shows.

This is directed straight at the director: It was, as you believe, Osama who disrupted your peace back in 2001. I ask you, what has our Prophet got to do with it?

This is directed straight at YouTube: Please delete, don’t ban, delete the video entirely because it is sensitive and has bordered out of your little laws and guidelines. You have the power to do so, so do it! Apparently to YouTube a woman shaking her ass is sensitive, a back-masked song is sensitive but this video is not. Am I crazy or YouTube?

On a closing note, all I have to say is this: Earthly justice is rarely done. And when it is, it is always targeted on the wrong people. Innocent people. The thieving scumbags, the rapists, the serial killers, they all somehow evade the long hand of the law. They somehow run free. How is that possible? How should I know, I’m just a 19 year old!

But what I do know that, as a Muslim, I have a consolation, a last laugh, a “go-home” line: We believe in Allah and we believe that nothing, absolutely nothing, can escape Him and neither ever will. The director, and people like Terry Jones, can evade the earthly law and live like kings but Allah will take care of them once they die. That’s the only consolation I have. The only thing that prevents me from personally wringing their necks.

Now comes the waiting game!

The Carlo Complex

On page 586 of Dan Brown’s Angels & Demons, there is a paragraph that pretty much sums up the character of the main antagonist of the novel, Carlo Ventresca, after whom this Complex is named after. It is as follows:

It was Mortarti who broke the spell. “The preferiti”, he said in a horrified whisper. “Baggia and the others. Please tell me you did not…”

The camerlengo turned to him, surprised by the pain in his voice. Certainly Mortarti could understand. Headlines carried science’s miracles every day. How long had it been for religion? Centuries? Religion needed a miracle! Something to awaken a sleeping world. Bring them back to the path of righteousness. Restore faith. The preferiti were not leaders anyway, they were transformers – liberals prepared to embrace the new world and abandon the old ways! This was the only way. A new leader. Young. Powerful. Vibrant. Miraculous. The preferiti served the church far more effectively in death than they could alive. Horror and Hope. Offer four souls to save millions. The world would remember them forever as martyrs. The church would raise glorious tribute to their names. How many thousands have died for the glory of God? They are only four.

OK, I haven’t taken a crash-course in Psychology nor am I the young and future Einstein or Jung. I’m just a 19 year-old kid who experiences a lot of epiphany and likes to read psychology based articles and books and entries. I also like reading different Complex’s and Thought Experiments but somehow they don’t seem to baffle me. It’s like I already know the stuff. It’s like as if I helped them write that article or thought or whatever. This interest, or fascination, started only a week ago and I’m already able to come up with my own theories and answers but of course, I have no idea how many rules I’m breaking, or making, along the way. Thinking and reading about the human mind is much better than daydreaming about being a rock-star or a celebrity. That’s for losers!

Now, let’s get on with the topic: The Carlo Complex!

I’ve observed in a-many books, cartoons, movies and in real-life that a person who considers himself perfect for the job will go as far as killing his opponents and/or people who have a better chance in succeeding for that job, usually a higher rank as President, or in the case of Carlo, The Holy Pope, a ranking he wants but cannot get, so he sets about killing the 4 who are likely to succeed and plays with the minds of the people.

One thing to bear in mind is that there is an important distinction between The Carlo Complex and Megalomania.

A megalomaniac considers himself higher than the law and Important, whereas a Carlo might think of themselves as Perfect. I think there is a difference between the two. A good example of a megalomaniac is Officer Frank Tenpenny from Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas. He is the law, but considers himself even higher. He does as he pleases, kills mercilessly and manipulates others to help move shit from one side to the other. A megalomaniac might want to rule the world, or a majority, with an iron fist whereas a Carlo wants to rule just as it is. He insists on him being the one doing it.

If you look at this way, both use violent actions or measures to achieve that status or rank but in the case of a megalomaniac, it’s an everyday thing, whereas for a Carlo, it’s for a very brief period. He might or might not continue it in the future.

The reason why I came up with this Complex is because I’ve seen many fictional characters and real-life persons show signs (I’m forgetting names at the moment, apologies) so I thought it would be a good idea to give it a name, or anything, just to get the ball rolling!

I’m sorry I couldn’t explain it in an impressive or wide manner but my thinking goes this much. True, many things come to mind, like The Trolley Situation and other psychological theories and thoughts but I don’t wanna go that deep either. Remember, this is written by a person who has just recently taken an interest, so be nice!

I would love your feedback on this! Thanks!